December 1: Christmas Lists

by racheldemy

Sometimes stumbling upon relics from one’s past is not only enjoyable, but downright insightful. I was asked by my mother to make a Christmas list this year (a favorite past time!) and yet another funny gift from the universe showed up: buried in a red suitcase underneath old school photos, a Christmas list from 1989.

Christmas List 1989

What in the hell is a "money lock"?

If you have been a longtime reader of this blog, it should come as no surprise that I love presents. You can probably also infer that I was a precocious (and wicked) child, who apparently knew exactly what she wanted (and still wants – a whole new wardrobe would make my century). But what enlightened me most is that after 2 years of serious personal inventory, I am able to find solace in knowing that even when I feel a bit lost about the path my life is taking, there is a clear, indelible breadcrumb trail to who I was and continue to be. It is exciting to look back and see how much we have changed but to simultaneously embrace how we stay exactly the same.

The exercise of making a Christmas list makes me forget myself for a moment. Often when I admit that I want something and even go so far as to ask, I manage to act more like a strict, puritanical parent with a multitude of excuses about why I shouldn’t have this or that thing. When I make a Christmas list, I turn back into the 7-year-old I used to be, unashamed and full of dreams. My specificity knows no bounds. If I’ve learned anything over the last 2 years, it is this: being fearless and unapologetic about what you want is the most important step to manifesting and materializing your goals. Whether you’re asking your mom for rent money or Santa Claus for a NKOTB telephone (which is one of about 3 things on that list I did not receive that year), cutting the crap and just ASKING for it gives you clarity. And with clarity, you are well on your way.

The winter season is about hunkering down and trimming the fat; letting go of the things that don’t serve you and asking for whatever it is you need to create the life you want. It can be simple (like a weaving set or a plant-growing kit) or much more complex (a partner or a life-calling) but the point is to ask and to be very specific. And to always leave room to receive more than you asked for.